Today, this morning, I was hit with a fence of doubt and heartache. I sat on the stairs of my 4 level split crying for the first time in a long time. I just could not rationalize the drama that was in my life and was overwhelmed with the notion of priorities and purges. I was emotionally exhausted.
D's door opened and he looked at me, walked over and just hugged me. I could feel my tears fall on his shoulders. They was never a word spoken but I knew that he knew I just needed exactly what he gave. He is so emotionally mature for his age. Circumstances have forced him to this.
I know had any of my girls been here, they would have hugged me no less. Maybe a few more words would have exchanged, a comment or two and a huge self esteem boost. I love my kids. More than more could imagine.
I brushed my tears off and headed up the stairs to get ready for church. As I was doing that, D walked in and handed me a paper.
44 Natural Highs:
1. Falling in love.
2. Laughing so hard your face hurts.
3. A hot shower.
4. No lines at the supermarket.
5. A special glance.
6. Getting mail.
7. Taking a drive on a pretty road.
8. Hearing your favorite song on the radio.
9. Lying in bed listening to the rain outside.
10. Hot towels fresh out of the dryer.
11. Chocolate milkshake (vanilla or strawberry).
12. A bubble bath.
13. Giggling.
15. The beach.
16. Finding a 20 dollar bill in your coat from last winter.
17. Laughing at yourself.
18. Looking into their eyes and knowing they Love you.
19. Midnight phone calls that last for hours.
20. Running through sprinklers.
21. Laughing for absolutely no reason at all.
22. Having someone tell you that you're beautiful.
23. Laughing at an inside joke with FRIENDS.
24. Accidentally overhearing someone say something nice about you.
25. Waking up and realizing you still have a few hours left to sleep.
26. Your first kiss (either the very first or with a new partner).
27. Making new friends or spending time with old ones.
28. Playing with a new puppy.
29. Having someone play with your hair.
30. Sweet dreams.
31. Hot chocolate.
32. Road trips with friends.
33. Swinging on swings.
34. Making eye contact with a cute stranger.
35. Making chocolate chip cookies.
36. Having your friends send you homemade cookies.
37. Holding hands with someone you care about.
38. Running into an old friend and realizing that some things (good or bad) never change.
39. Watching the expression on someones face as they open a much desired present from you.
40. Watching the sunrise.
41. Getting out of bed every morning and being grateful for another beautiful day.
42. Knowing that somebody misses you.
43. Getting a hug from someone you care about deeply.
44. Knowing you've done the right thing, no matter what other people think.
He has such a kind heart. I smiled and faced the day.
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