In my Heart Only

So, Ive been through something that was pretty hard. Unfortunately everyone around me is so tired or jeez, I don't know, disinterested in it that I crashed and burned all in my lonesome and I think I had a huge AHA moment.

I have always gauge my life and those in by the interaction I had with my mother. That being said, "do my kids treat me the way I treated my mother?" and what can  do to have value in their lives.

I learned yesterday that the answer is nothing. For so many years I have fought to prove my value and yesterday I realized I should never have to do that. If they couldn't take the time to care over this then there's not much else to say.

Stpping away now.

STRONG

You never know how strong you are 

until being strong 

is the only choice you have.

Somedays and in some ways life has a way bringing perspective to the forefront. I am in that place. Tomorrow I have surgery, a surgery I never expected but all the same, one that can make life come into balance. 

To the balancing of life!